starting off the week

Yep its Monday , and this week is off to a crazy start ~ tonight , Andy's team advanced in the playoffs even further, they are 1 game away from the championship & Andy was picked for the all star team! YAY! In other news.. Doug is off this week but seems to have a serious problem with youtube .... its like an addiction, give him some mt dew and youtube and he is a happy for hours ! Alex is suffering his first real heartbreak, wow , I have forgotten how it feels to be 14 and have your heart crushed... Aaron has a new obsession with fishing, there is a tremendous farm pond that we have access to and the fish there are monsters! He would fish from dawn to dark if he was allowed to . He has gotten to the point of being without bait, and still throwing out his line... hoping the fish will just bite on the hook. What a crazy beginning to a crazy week....

Go Warsaw Warriors!!

Things I Think About

At 2am , I'm sleepless yet again ... so as I sit and let my mind idle , I have decided to jot down a list of things I wonder about or think about often ... very random ...

• if you knew your friend was being cheated on by his/her spouse , would you tell them?
• why do people work so hard on making their lives *look* good when they are miserable? this one really bothers me, its like living a lie...
• religion is incredibly powerful - good & evil -
• who are we to judge Michael Jackson?
• where are parents these days? society has gone mad...
• why does have Alex have seizures? ( medically speaking I know ) I am looking for a deeper understanding
• forgiveness is difficult, painful , and beautiful
• I need to go back to school
• is it possible to be satisfied? or are we as people always striving for something *more *?
• if you don't have trust, you have nothing
• how do you tell an adult to stop whining, and feeling sorry for themselves?
• why do I feel so guilty every night while I'm laying in bed, mentally paging through the days activities and feeling like I missed those moments with the boys , that I can't have back!
• why are the words * I'm sorry * so difficult to say and mean
• why is adoption so difficult ? yet we as a society will give back someones kids that is verbally , emotionally , and physically abusive.

well that's just a sampling of what flys through my mind constantly, I'll try to catch some zzzz's , as its almost 3 AM .

Just Breathe

Summer is flying by , July is creeping ever closer, so many things I want to do . I get myself into a summer frenzy and become oblivious to what makes summer so magical. Today walking past my flower bed I noticed they had gone stark wild! That old adage stop and smell the flowers came to mind immediately , it was a subtle subconscious reminder to relax , live in the moment . I'm making a concerted effort to slow down , lower my expectations and live each moment completely and wholly. Now if I could only fit a few more hours into the day.....