We're outta here!

We Are Outta Here! OK, maybe not technically... but in less then 24 hours... we are outta here and on our way to North Carolina, to the beach. I haven't completely packed up things yet, I'm a professional procrastinator... or maybe I just function better under pressure. Anyways, I thought I would share a few pics of where we are staying. I'm taking my laptop , thank goodness our little cottage has wireless internet! Maybe I'll post a few real time pics from there, or I might be a little to busy drinking pina coladas & strawberry daiquiris... maybe...

Ramblings

The last couple of weeks have been a complete whirlwind . We've had 5 baseball games a week between Aaron and Andy. Andy's team is doing fantastic! They are 8-0 and he has not struck out thus far this season. Wahoo! Aaron's little team is so darn cute, but they have only won 1 game, they seem to be up against some tough competition this year. Beyond the whole realm of "baseball world" which yes, life does exist outside that. We have been readying for vacation, working in the yard , trying to catch up on all those projects warm weather brings on. I've come to accept that I am not super mom , I can't do it all, and that's OK. Alex is doing remarkably well this baseball season, he doesn't play the sport. His neurologist says no. However this is the first year we have not had complete and utter meltdowns from him on not being able to play. I'm sure I've said it before but I'm going to say it again. Its heart wrenching and completely by far the most painful feeling in the world to have him sit at his brothers games watching , knowing how much he wants to play and saying no. On the upside, Alex's summer bowling league started up and right out of the gate be busted his record into splinters! He has so much drive and passion for what he is limited in participating in. Frustrating.

On another note, I was reading through someones blog -- randomly-- no one I know . Who also had a son with epilepsy and cured the seizures with the ketogenic diet. I think that's wonderful , but my beef is the way the blog was written made it seem as if having epilepsy was some sort of punishment from God. Alex also read this blog and it stirred up many emotions from him I didn't even know where there. He demanded to know why God would punish him , that obviously the God I have presented as a parent , that he has learned about , that he prays to , would not punish him with seizures. Life is inexplicable sometimes, why do some people have illnesses that others don't? That blog really buttered my biscuits. I've been stewing over it for days now. I know its time to let it go, I guess its my first time getting caught up in "blog drama" , and a heads up that what I write , and write about doesn't stop at my screen , that people could perceive what I'm writing as the opposite of what I'm truly conveying.

Also in the last few weeks Alex was diagnosed with Aspergers , I'm still learning what that means, all I know is that --things finally make sense --yes I have put him on more medication , that was a struggle for me, but we are seeing many positive changes, he is really enjoying being him . Someday I could write a book on the life of Alex Adkins. He is far beyond his almost 15 year old age. Oddly, Yahoo had a front page article this past week on how epilepsy and aspergers share a common gene, and the two often travel hand in hand. Of course this information would have helped years ago but right now its time to heal and to embrace whatever God has planned for each of us, move on , and live life.

Vacation Time

So here it is, vacation time. I'm in denial. Sound weird? Usually I am packed, locked, and loaded . Not so much this year. I'm not sure what has changed since last year, my mind has gone haywire and I can't seem to organize a darn thing. We are leaving next Friday for North Carolina, this year its Topsail Beach, we normally head a little further south to Holden Beach ( my fave so far ). Although last year was an offbeat year we stayed on the 4x4 beaches in Corolla with the wild horses. It was about 10 miles up the beach in the sand to our house. Everyone should visit there at least once in their lives. Incredible. Back to this year though, I'm the biggest beach fan around. I draw the line at myrtle or Virginia beach. I'm not into crowded public beaches. For me , going to the beach is almost akin to a spiritual experience. I am able to feel something deep within my heart... where it feels so free and happy and to see something so vast that God has created, it is there that I don't feel I am ever alone... I feel whole. The wind in my face and hair just make me feel alive. No where else naturally... do I feel that alive. It really does mean that much to me.
The next step is to figure out how to get my ducks in a row ! I've got to do some laundry , sift through the droves of clean unfolded clothes and pack the troops up! I have a serious habit of over thinking things so I just need to jump in the fire! I'm going to have to ignore the next 8 baseball games and bowling leagues until I've got a handle on the insanity ;o)
Watch out --there is going to be a whole lotta crazy over here!

a little man with many intrests

How many baseball players do you see sitting around before a game strumming their Ukulele ? Aaron is quite an eclectic little man, he sure keeps our world interesting ;o)

4 Years Ago

Its hard to believe its been 4 years since we decided to move south. OK , not so far south, but in theory it feels like a whole different world. I still scratch my head and wonder how 60 miles can seem like crossing over in the twilight zone at times. So just for kicks I've decided to list the top 10 things I have noticed since moving 60 miles south.

1. The word "home" is pronounced "HOUUME"
2. "Washing" really means " WARSHING "
3. Its perfectly normal to hear gun shots any hour of the day and its not a big deal...
4. We are definitely out numbered by deer
5. The post office and hardware still close for lunch time
6. EVERYONE chews tobacco -- even the ladies
7. If you wear anything other then jeans , people wonder what your up to
8. Our town still has one of those old fashioned fire sirens, the first time I heard it I thought we were under enemy attack
9. Frog gigging and bow fishing are common
10. The only radio station I get in plays gospel, rap, rock, alternative, country, and hosts a two hour morning talk show where the locals call in and complain about EVERYTHING

These aren't necessarily the most important changes I've noticed , but they sure got my attention. Don't get me wrong, I would move all over again, we have met some incredible people, made many new friends, and this area is beautiful! People here are friendly, almost to a fault. Its good to live " in town" but have a backyard that goes into the woods and river . I think I might be getting spoiled by the small town life, and that's just fine with me ;o)

Happy Mothers Day

Happy Mothers Day to my momma ;o) She doesn't get nearly enough credit for all she does! In the last year she has moved about 5 houses down from me and she is my right hand most of the time! Even though we rarely see eye to eye, we laugh about it , argue, and move on . She is taking a well deserved trip the Wheeling , WV today to do some gambling. So bring home the big dough mom!~

More Baseball!

Andy's season is finally up and running~! I actually remembered the camera this time! They are undefeated this season , yeah yeah ... its early in the season ! Andy hit his first home run earlier this week , and at tonight's game they shut the other team down with a 24-2 final score! Andy did a great job pitching , and stole home tonight! I think they have a great team this year, we will see!

Baseball Shmaseball!

Aaron's baseball season is off and running! He is doing excellent this year, he has hit the ball every time he has been up to bat so far! He actually made it home in the first game! I can't seem to find small enough baseball pants though... these are extra small and they still just hang on him. I'm not sure what he is doing in the top picture, he is on second base and looks like his hand is in his mouth or something... I do have to say I'm very sick of the other people at the games complaining that he is to small to play or fussing because of his size, he is the exact age as the rest of the team . Complete and utter baseball B*tches! Its way to early in the season for me to be this irritated. Andy has had his first two games cancelled so they won't be playing until Monday. Watch for pictures ;o)